The Deep End
Welcome to The Deep End, where all who seek, doubt or are wounded may come for questions, comfort and once in a while, answers.
Welcome to The Deep End.
Mar 8
I’ve been trying to find God all my life. Most of the time, if I find God at all, it’s in the wounded, broken places, in the wildness of trees and animals and in the dark unexplored places we fear.
Lately, I feel the inexplicable pull of something larger than myself, of Someone who scatters galaxies or black holes across space, who sobs over a sparrow’s death but laughs with profound joy when I remember to be grateful. This desperate longing to find more of God is leading me straight to the deep end of my heart.
As a writer, I produce poetry and creative nonfiction and fiction and no, I guess I don’t really have a single brand. The one constant I feel humming through my bones is a God who recognizes and loves my wounded heart, who has never called me deformed or crippled.
And this low and constant hum feeds my quest not only to dive deeper but to reach out to those more broken or wounded or doubting or hurt than I am. I see you. Your wounds are deep and they’re real. But when we wade deeper into love together, we can be as lovely as God intended.
I write about physical disability because I’m a polio survivor. I write about family dysfunction because I live it (who doesn’t?). I even write about my love of cats because, well, they’re ridiculous yet lovable creatures who seem to own me.
Let’s wade into the deep end of the heart together and see where the current takes us.
However, I’m not a theologian, scholar or even someone who memorized a boatload of scripture and can tell you what it all means. There are legions of writers out there who are, and I’ll be sharing authors I love here. I am not an expert on loving God, but I’d love to be.
My point is that I believe I can keep seeking, keep diving deeper and keep growing in wisdom without going to seminary. So can you. Sure, use experts to enhance your knowledge. But don’t forget that your God experience is still valid even if you hardly ever crack open the Good Book (confession: that’s often been me). We’ve been told experience (emotion) is unreliable, but when people talk about God encounters, they always mention the heart.
At The Deep End, I want to encourage and comfort you, but I also hope to challenge you in my own limited way. I want to help open your senses to a more complete experience, expanding your heart to dive deeper into the mystery. I will probably post once a month, to ask questions, tell you about stuff I’m publishing and write about my God Experience. Let’s dive in together and see where the current takes us.